What Is Mental Breakdown?
A nervous or mental breakdown is a term used to describe a period of intense mental distress. During this period, you’re unable to function in your everyday life.
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During this lockdown period, I do believe there are quite a number of people feeling so. This is something that beyond our control. It is not saying, you would not or will not to have. Prior to many causes, accumulate all emotions daily and become mental breakdown someday. Myself is one of them having a mild mental breakdown just 2 weeks ago.
One day, on the late evening when I was scrolling my phone screen and looking for some videos, suddenly a hit on my mind that I am missing on my mom. Having the thought that I was doing just not enough for her right after moved to my own place. Having the thought that I am a bad daughter who being neglect on my mom needs and etc. Tears are falling down my cheek, uncontrollable. This is weird as it has never happened before. Then, the next morning I was feeling so much to write on something, then again the same thing hit me and tears are falling down my cheek. Initially, I thought maybe I am missing mom so much at this point, planning to go back for dinner later tonight. According to a friend when I told her about it, she recognize it as mild depression. I was shock as I know I am being stress over work, our life and all but I thought I have it in control because I know how to de-stress myself. Unfortunately, this is not.
What have I done on this mild depression?
I called mom immediately and talk to her for a while. I went back for dinner and be present on the dinner session to enjoy with everyone that night. I embraced this feeling. There is no big deal to feel mild depress because this pandemic and lockdown have totally changed our daily routine since we born. Never ever we faced this before in our life, do not know how to start and change, it is totally alright. As we always say CHANGED, but it is easy said than done. It’s true. Therefore, I start from small little thing.
There is one thing that I learnt through this lockdown is : EXPRESS.
There are many things that I learnt through MCO. I even jot down into my diary on these things as a record. I started to recognize some Politicians faces and be little interest on politic issues now. Knowing a little bit on what is going on to Malaysia. Listening to lot of Live Talks. This is also considered a good learning point. As many politicians said, it is the time for us all to express and do not keep quiet and complain inside you. It is also good to express our point on certain issues in life.
Through MCO, there are also lot of things need to change the way we used to be. For instance, we may need to talk to people through gadgets more now to keeping in touch. I would properly need to learn to set up work appointment through Zoom instead of meeting face-to-face now. I am still kind of not used to it but I have to get familiar with this like it or not.
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